We were like sisters for so long....
there was a time when i couldn't go a day without talking to you twice...
i know we drifted apart ...
you moved away...
i got married...
our daily conversation faded and became random IM's and forwarded emails....
but i will never forget you.
All the good times and REAL laughs...
Our road trip to the east coast... all 5 of us crammed into that little cavalier...
taking our boys out on Halloween together...
bringing them for walks at Two Creeks and Kopegaron Woods...
fishing.... just us and them...
The last time i saw you.... i have to admit...
i could see the last ten years hit you hard...
but i would NEVER have imagined.... not in a million years.
You were only 35.
When i heard.. it didnt really sink in.
it was unbelievable even... then there was nothing in the paper...
so it was even harder to swallow...
but one by one... people started to text and call me...
did you hear about shelley?
is it true about shelley?
is she really gone?
shelley passed away...
massive heart attacks?
what? she was only 35?
one year **to the day** older than me.
Where is Ty?
Is he ok?
I have no answers and so so SO many questions.
Im sorry i didnt spend more time with you when you were last in town...
im sorry i lost touch... that i didnt call.... that i didnt care enough... that i wasnt there.
im sorry you are gone and i cant tell you how much fun i used to have with you,
i cant thank you for all the times you....
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im sorry there was no money for a proper funeral or showing...
but the little gathering at your sisters was nice.
i might have them do it that way for me when i go...
i didnt feel that chill i usually feel ... cuz it wasnt as cold as those places usually are...
im sorry you will never get a chance to meet your grandchild that is on the way...
Ty's girlfriend is very pretty... shes so young... him too.
we were both younger than them i guess when we became moms...
i hope he gets in touch with me once in a while....
im not on facebook after all.... i guess that complicates things?
Anyways... i guess i need to say goodbye, old friend.
i will never forget you.
we were like sisters...
and i miss you already.
R.I.P.
